Gushing through this thoughts I realized how selfish he is and always has been. Maybe the world that we live in, everything and everyone is selfish. Yet some people believe that they’re different and they care for others.
When the truth of the matter is that they’re all the same, always looking for something that’s satisfying to them. Even in helping others they have a reason behind it and that’s their reason.
Going through his words, I saw a pattern, the same that was carried forward in all of them. Pain,anger,hate,love and what not. That’s when I realized that it was only words of what he thought of the world, and his perception of love.
Never explained what others might have felt or experienced. Maybe he’s a narcissist too. The one who believes he’s not one of them. Yes,he’s been trapped in his own words abd feelings but not because somebody pushed him there. but because he wanted hinself there. he knew where they were taking him yeh he took those steps and introduced himself to those demons.
Not saying that he loved it, but there’s none to blame for it. He never thought of the people who he crushed in this process. He never will. Because in his thoughts and prayers he’s the victim.
He might not see himself the same way but he will also never see others the same. And I don’t think they will either. I do not.