A sinking heart

A heart that sinks even now, 

Surely there’s something still alive, 

Feeding itself on something unwanted, 

With no future to hold, 

No destiny to bestow, 

Drowning but floating for as long as it can, 

Hopes that never shatter, 

Waiting for those shadows to fade away, 

When the nights are over, 

There will be a new light, 

Don’t be so sure yet, 

As the world you live and built will collide,

Until you form a new one. 

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Different but not wrong 

You and me, 

We’re not wrong, 

We’re just different now, 

Our beliefs have changed, 

Our trusts have dissolved, 

But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel the same for you, 

I still do, 

You can blame me for everything if you like, 

I’d be happy to accept all that disturbs you, 

Even though I’ve done nothing but care for you, 

But that’s my religion, 

That’s my thought of chain,

You can believe whatever that satisfies your emotions, 

I would never hold you responsible for feelings things, 

As I know that you are as beautiful inside as you are from the outside, 

For what I know of you, 

You need not worry about that. 

I’ve kept those secrets with me, 

And I plan to keep them forever and ever. 

They will never be mentioned, 

Yes I still feel them and think about that but that doesn’t give me any right to bring those words out. 

And mind you, 

I don’t.

But I don’t have any complaints from you, 

You wanted a better life, 

I’m sure you have one now. 

Happy and smiling, 

Like you deserve it. 

You’re not meant to be kept in a nest. 

You are the will to free, 

You are what shines the brightest up in the sky. 

I hope to see you there, 

Or at least that’s what I always look for. 

Keep smiling and head up mera beta. 

She was but not anymore

She was a heart full of joy

A stream of love and purity

A cold breeze for a sunny day

A shadow for the bright lights,

Precious as a rare stone in a desert,

She was everything that a heart can ask for,

beautiful to touch,

charismatic to every soul around,

A smile to die for,

She was like a beautiful painting in a museum that you can stare at for hours,

but never claim,

she is there,

so are we,

she was once mine,

but now she’s not.

i still owe my everything to her.

always will.

 

 

Most Beautiful

I’ve always described you as the most beautiful part of my life. I never really got a chance to explain myself the beauty of it and you.

I’ve tried on every single dark night, but somehow I always fail to gather the words. Memories have always been alive and to be fair I’ve been counting them everyday, even the bad ones. Some days they’re beautiful and some days they’re just a pinch that jerks the whole body to your soul. Overall a feeling you can’t compare with anything.

Now that I’m finally out there on my own and without you and your words. The only person who knows me now is me and no one else. There’s a better judgement of everything and I can proudly say once again that I’ve never met anyone like you and probably never will. Nothing to do with my love for you. But generally as a person too. You truly are one of the greatest power I’ve ever seen, someone who can turn around anything in this world. Your Smile can do wonders that you do not know of.

Stay beautiful, and stay blessed, and keep smiling forever and ever. May all be with you. now and till the end of times. I love you to bits.

Every single day 

For the longest time I’ve been fighting with myself

A never ending war for someone 

Someone who doesn’t want me

Maybe I’m not suppose to exist in their life 

Wishing there was a stop button to end it all 

The misery that I live in every single day 

Thoughts that I carry with every memory of us 

It will never be true and it will never be enough 

It was a fantasy that I lived 

Hoping it will happen again but it never will

For you and me are apart now 

More than forever 

You have you and I have you 

Caught up in my moments to the extent 

That I don’t need you now anymore 

I live with what you left me with 

I cherish them every night

Smile at whatever I remember 

Cry at whatever I feel

Curse at whatever hurts

A battle that I fight for myself with myself 

Every single day 

Music that still haunts me 

It might never end 

I might never recover 

But I’ll always love you sweetheart 

As I have I’ve never loved someone so deeply 

Keep me alive in a corner of your heart 

And I shall die peacefully in my misery 

Beyond the disaster 

In the death of lies I saw you

The most beautiful lie of my life 

Hiding behind the cracking glass

Wanting to shatter 

Contained in a shell 

Never have I seen something so beautiful 

So precious 

Full of flaws 

And yet undefined 

My jaw drops as I witness you 

Breaking those bonds 

That held you for years 

For she was the strongest bond within herself 

A morning that ends your darkness. 

A light that gives you reason. 

Beyond this world of disasters. 

31.07

Another year for that beautiful journey of yours, 

Much has passed,

Much has to come, 

You’ve seen some, 

You’ll see more, 

Keep the smile, 

Move your feet, 

Prayers for you, 

Never stopped and never will, 

You deserve more than life itself, 

I wish to see you grow, 

See you smile, 

May you get everything that your heart desires, 

All my prayers and wishes are for you, 

Wherever you are, 

I wish the best of the best for you, 

Nothing less than perfection, 

Because you are nothing less than perfect. 

Happy birthday my jaan. 

May you have the best time of your life. 

May all your dreams come to life, 

May all your fears disappear. 

With all my love and hopes, 

May you find what you seek. 

Days when 

There are days when I want to run back to everything that I knew. 

Days when a presence of someone made me feel alive, 

When I did not know the fears that I counter today, 

Times when there was more faith in hopes and dreams, 

Still a dreamer but weakened in the bed of time, 

Run back to the moments when a smile or a gaze would change perceptions.